god these are so stubby. do i not even have the patience to write a full post. jesus. 25 yr old me will re-read these and know how much of a lazy asshole i was/probably still am.

maybe he isn't a good person.
i wonder if my dad will actually die soon. he seems depressed enough to completely give up on living. i feel awkwardly nonchalant about the prospect of this happening. moms is not speaking to me at the moment and i also don't really care. reconnecting with my design work and some friends (all girls, i noticed). i'm not really trying to be nice to people. people like it when you don't care about them. i also think my metabolism is speeding up?? if i was fat on top of all of this i actually would kill myself. 

he is a good person.
i will continue 'seeing' him.
he will take me to taco bell and i will buy three tacos and immediately regret eating them.
he will say not to worry.
i will kiss him outside.

nothing to see here

move along