you can will yourself to be a better person !

this week of extreme realizations started last tuesday after seeing steve roggenbuck perform at drkmttr. drk.  was a relieving purging that heightened or perhaps obliterated self awareness. was like a stand up special with heightened sense of vulnerability and care. he is big into being 'gentle' recently and was interesting to see a pronouncement of genteelness, which is of course oxymoronic . i have internalized this message of genteelness, contrasting interesting to the VRQ article about post-woundedness and the internalized misogyny that comes w the territory of being brusque or crass or insensitive as a woman. i am taking up the space in between manhood and womanhood and getting larger and larger.