Monday, February 25, 2013

being a person is hard

feel interested in making out with asian guys
somehow i have a preference for koreans and/but i am unclear on the racial hierarchy (if any) i am playing into with this assertion. do koreans have more 'white features'? feel interested in this question bc i was recently in bed with boy and he remarked that indian girls (me in particular) have 'white features' (my words not his) distinguished only by a darker complexion. reflexively, i took this as a compliment and further remarked that east asian girls had more distinctly 'asian' facial characteristics. this small and vapid conversation was heavy with racial politics and looking back on it, it's actually pretty disgusting how much 'white beauty' standardizes beauty even at the cognitive level. hmmm. will expand on this later. but probably not.

im feeling extremely fucked for this test / unclear on how much addy to eat. will try to study briefly tmrw sans addy. expecting varied results. shunning the general public this week; should be met with success.

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